End of May

On 31st of May, I looked back, nothing special has happened this month. I looked further back, nothing special has happened in the past 5 months.

I look forward to having 'something' in the second half of the year.

Someone's Story

My mum bumped into her primary schoolmate yesterday, they talked the whole afternoon and my mum told me the followings:-

1. The man and his wife came to HK 20 years ago, knowing no English and were just 阿燦.
2. The man was extremely indulgent in computer and photography, but he made losses to his business in repairing cameras.
3. The man was at the verge of bankruptcy while his wife was gaining success in her career.
4. His wife was a very good business woman who made herself the CEO of a well known advertising company over years.
5. She even had admirer who bought her expensive swallow nest and picked her up in Rolls Royce.
6. They divorsed years ago, the lawyer is 謝偉俊.
7. Bit by bit he earned his reputation as photographer for celebrities, and now the professor for computer in University.
8. Now he had the money and a career, but he lost a family.

Mismatch of events will lead to different outcomes. While he was trying hard to earn better money for the family, he used all his time available to learn the jargons of computer in English, to master every function in the software. He missed the growing up of his son and overlooked the affections deserved by his wife. Still, he did not make a success...... yet.

She was disappointed at the continued failures for years, and could no longer endure the loneliness, she decided to take the lead. Gradually she felt she could do much better than a housewife. The more respect and money she earned at work, more she despises the man at home. They decided to end the unhappy marriage peacefully, no fight, no argument. Just signed in front of the famous lawyer, she took the son, and he took whatever was left.

He devoted his hours fully to photography and computer, his talent was discovered professors in the University, they offered him the teaching position, he earned a handsome salary as professor, and even more luring income as freelance photographer. But all came too late...

My mum got the photo album and showed me the collection he took for me in the park while I was 2 years old. His wife and my dad were also there... 20 years later, only one family left and 2 divorced people with successful careers.

I left my mum for her own contemplation with the photos, and appreciate more of her stern believe in marriage and faith in maintaining a family. Though she scolds, curses and shouts, she does not abandon the family, nor allows it to be torn apart, regardless of countless attacks and crisis.

26th Wedding Anniversary

After many fightings and much quarels, after surviving through various life crisis and successfully raising two children, they start to grow old, and they each starts to appreciate the hard work contributed to the family by the other.

This was one of the very few memories of seeing my dad kissed my mum on her cheek, and it is even rarer to see the shyness & girlish expression on my mum's face. =^-^=

HAPPY 26th WEDDING ANNIVERSARY!!!!

New Books!!

Strolling in Commercial Press for 2 hours, and I got the following into my possession :-

Animal Farm
- George Orwell

Mrs. Dalloway
- Virginia Woolf

The Collector
- John Fowles

I am half way in "Love in the time of cholera", I guess I am not mature and intelligent enough to understand / appreciate this book. But I do like the below description :-
"... she was amazed by its determination but pitying its solitude..."
if you know what 'it' is.

A terrible thought...

A terrible thought occurred to me lately. It was just a thought, a guess, a speculation... not a proved fact. Threads of incidents lead me here, or my own demon lured me here, but the idea is so upsetting and powerful that can destroy everything. Yes, everything is definitely not an overstatment. It is precisely that everything can be lost... if that has ever been true.

P.S. The rational me will say: tingzi has read too much, think too much, sleep too much and be given too much free time. And be over-statisfied by her nearly perfect and peaceful life, so imagination takes its place and tries to disturb the tranquility of the status quo.

Please prove me wrong...

Document your life

I was terrifed to note how fast time has passed... and even more horrified to find how little we remembered. I looked at the calender of last month and tried to recall what I have done on each day, I found it very difficult to recall. Fragments of events might appeared, but the exact date & time, and afterthoughts of events were lost.

So document your life, it's the trivial things that made our daily lives interesting, and it's also these the first to slip out of our memory.

Swallow Nest

Haven't had 'yin wor' for many years that I forgot the taste of it. My memory of having it was when I was under 8 years old, that time I was still living in Guangzhou. Dunno why they give me 'yin wor' at that time and never offer the same during my adolescence. I need more of it when I was 16 than when I was 6... and I am more desperate for it when I getting close to 26~~ haha~

Conclusion : if you are being fed with 'yin wor', you must being loved!!

P.S. The topic of marriage becomes an 'unavoidable subject' when I was with my grandma. She said a good husband must not be '無梨頭' (her accent), and must be willing to share responsibilities at home and be able to defend the family.

For '無梨頭', she means being self-centered, without ambitious to have a better life, unable to take the lead in the family, 神經脆弱...

Under her heavy interrogation, she discovered I have a similar character with my bf, i.e. 同熟悉既人就好多野講, 唔熟既就睬你都傻..... 薑是越老越辣的.

Robbery reported!

I feel like I am robbing away your time like my boss did to me... but I dun think my actions are unjustified. I can be indifferent to your presence by supreme self-controll... trust me I can do this.