A terrible thought...

A terrible thought occurred to me lately. It was just a thought, a guess, a speculation... not a proved fact. Threads of incidents lead me here, or my own demon lured me here, but the idea is so upsetting and powerful that can destroy everything. Yes, everything is definitely not an overstatment. It is precisely that everything can be lost... if that has ever been true.

P.S. The rational me will say: tingzi has read too much, think too much, sleep too much and be given too much free time. And be over-statisfied by her nearly perfect and peaceful life, so imagination takes its place and tries to disturb the tranquility of the status quo.

Please prove me wrong...