The Pope

The Pope died yesterday morning. I recalled that I did cry when 家駒 of Beyond was dead. Generally I only took celebrities' death as a piece of news and forgot it at the moment I heard it. But now death takes more of my attention...

The pain of loss is beyond expressible, I do not think time can heal unless I face it directly. For I found myself avoiding it as much as I can. I do not want to call on my grandma actively, unless I am being asked to. And the longer I do not talk / see her, the more guilty I feel, the more unwilling I want to call. I can only see an endless circle of avoidance.

Before, Ching Ming Festival was only an extra holiday for me, but not so anymore... not anymore.