虛情，假意；厚顏，無恥！

Written in Bali, Indonesia.

“襟撈“乃成功之母...

如題

Real or Not Real??

Will find out soon...

Glasses Free

After tomorrow 12:30pm, I will be glasses free!! Not as worrysome as molar extraction, am actually looking forward to it! Byebye glasses!!

-O_O-

Change

Something has changed recently. Suddenly cannot withstand the sight of unwashed dishes; cannot bear the dusty floor and started to enjoy the routine Sunday cleaning. It is funny to see these changes, especially on myself.

Home

Years of yawning & dreaming, I finally can have a bathroom which can provide endless hot water; can have a room of my own; can read without interruption of mum's cursing; can have enough space to practice yoga... everything is perfect.

Yet when I returned and sleep in my messy room on the hard bed; with sound of traffic light clicking downstairs & sound of brother's video games... I feel more comfortable here. Suddenly steaming hot shower becomes unimportant, yoga poses can be replaced by stretching exercise... suddenly, I missed home.

Work

Seems that the more you are hated & feared at work, the more successful you are.

I am deemed to be unsuccessful at work then.

Change

Away from the Company for 2 years, people are still disgruntled about long working hours and unreasonable clients; departments are still rivaled for power and resources. Many faces have left, and those remained are nothing, but angry, moody & dull.

It proved I made the right choice by going to working holiday 2 years ago, because if I continued to work at my last post, I would be deprived of the lasting happinesses & wonderful experiences encountered in Australia.

Seems that change can mean something exciting & fun. Hopefully this applies to my lastest change as well. :)

The Only Reason...

I am older than they are; I am quieter than they are; the only reaosn for you to choose to sitting beside me is that you love me.

Correct me if I am wrong.

P.S. can't believe I am putting entry here again

Nah..

As far as I recalled, this is the second time I intentionally did not pick up your call for the past 7 years. I would say this number is rather impressive. If you forgot, the first time I kept ignoring your SMS & phone calls was when I was in Beijing business trip 4 years ago.

Am I being too demanding?! Go to hell if you think so.

Happy News

This is indeed the happiest news I've heard ever since I came back from Australia!!! Shocking and yet sooo happy for you!! ^O^ Finally one of us got married!!!!

My Aunt

Ten years ago, you told me peacefully you were divorsed not long after you arrived Canada, while eating congee; two days ago, you told me slowly that you had half your lungs removed because of lung cancer during shopping. You even detailed the process of how the disease was discovered, so rationally & quietly, as if you were telling other people's story.

I cannot find any trace of these awful things ever happened on you, your broad smile and your funny jokes. Only wonderful experiences can be linked to you.

Unpredictable is a suitable adjective for life. Planning is needed, but living the moment is more important. So just do it.

Don't Fail My Trust In You

After that nightmare and tonight's conversation on unfaithfulness, I have nothing more to say except this: Don't Fail My Trust In You.

Difference

I had this new idea of a bold move, yet I received two totally different reactions from two different parties. One is supportive and encouraging, while the other one is extremely reserved on the idea to the extent of discouragement.

In the face of two opposite thinking directions, I am not confused, because I know what I want, the question is how to execute the process. I am only sad that the supportive comments were not come from my own family. The saddness was further deepened by the apparent lack of confidence in my ability and commitment to take care of them.

We have to learn to be positive, only when there is hope to succeed, you will have the energy and creativity to make it happens. I am (we are) the pioneer of dream maker(s).

Welcome Home

Welcome Home! Home is made of tasty food, comfy bed, noisy friends, crowded streets, nagging mum, messy room, loveable & hate-able brother, polluted air, depressed citizens, glamourous shopping malls and a pressurized atmosphere.

After two months since coming back, I had lived off the reminant joy of the working holiday. Now what comes after me is the pressure to get a good job, and to get used to living with family again...

A New Blog for A New Time

If you are so kind and still reading this dusty blog, please visit the following blog from this day until I am back to Hong Kong. Love you!

http://tingzi-at-aus.blogspot.com/

Appreciation

I thank you for your tolerance of my bad temper.
I am grateful of your love and care, though these are often expressed in an unspoken manner.
I am thankful for your courage and determination to realize this adventure. I will not have done it without you.
I appreciate every single gesture in this relationship, regardless of its significance.
I must say I am so very blessed and fortunate to have met you.

Thank you.

No Regret

People generally are shocked by my decision to quit my job and to forego one-year income to "experience" life, and yet exclaimation of envy is expressed (some are genuine appreciations and some are out of politeness). Different people has different expectations of my trip: obtain a permanent residency; start a business; working a job with triple the current salary; travel around; try something extraordinary...

Being a Number 9 person, naturally I would want to fulfill wishes of other people, and feel disappointed if expectations of others are not being fulfilled. So upto this moment, three days before the trip, I am still confused of what my OWN expectation should be.

What I will be doing is definitely not something conventional in our culture, and that is why eyebrows are raised whenever this idea is heard. Doubtful looks and disagreeing comments sometimes shake my confidence. But the scene of myself regretting for giving up this opportunity at later age sends cold sweat down my spine... I would prefer to take in skeptical opinions than to regret.

Guessed I should focus on what I want to add to my life, instead of pleasing others like I always do. To start a new career at the edge of 30 sounds "a bit late" to many people, but "I wished I would have done XXX when I was younger" is often one of the most repeated phrases as people grow older. I do not want this phrase to slip out of my mouth.

Chin up and look ahead, I should only feel blessed. Afterall, family and friends are supportive and I have a travelmate who would face heavier pressure and yet agree to join this adventure. I should have nothing to complain, but be thankful.

Feel so relieved after writing up this entry.

Email Extract

"hey~ i am counting down the days now... and i somehow feel bad abt this... when i saw ppl treat me so good... i feel even worse....

i did not have this kind of feeling in my last exchange... maybe i got a more legitimate reason in going abroad last time, it was with a concrete purpose. but for this time... i just left whatever that is here and get away for some time.. to have fun.... or to so called experience life.... ..."

One Week

Same time next week, I will be on the plane embarking to the boldest and yet most exciting journey.